Back in the swing of things

Well, this chemical pregnancy really took the wind out of my sails. Found out on Monday that my beta was only 9 at 20 dpiui. I started bleeding that afternoon and that was that.

Tomorrow I'm going to a practitioner of Mayan Abdominal Massage and then on Tuesday I'm headed back to acupuncture. J even mentioned the possibility of me taking some extended time off from work. If this IUI doesn't work we'll be on a forced break because of the holidays - which should give us some time to not think about it and then to really work on coming up with a long term plan.

Craziness

So - here's the saga of the last week.

I POAS on Tuesday, 14 dpo. It was an EPT +/- test (blue dye). I asked J to look at it since I didn't want to! He called me in because he thought he saw something but he wasn't sure. Sure enough - a super faint line. But, neither one of us could believe it because it was so faint, and we decided I would test again the following day if I didn't get AF.

Wednesday I POAS - this time, it was a First Response (pink dye). Clearly no line.

Thursday I POAS - back to the EPT - a slight + again.

Friday PM I POAS - back to First Response, and there is a faint line! At this point, I'm really started to believe I could be pregnant, but J wants to wait for a blood test. So, I'm going to call the Dr. on Monday morning and see if I can't get in for a test. In the meantime, I'm going to go buy some more HPTs! And still no AF - I'm starting to feel good about this!!!!!!!

Turning leaves

When I woke up today I couldn't exactly remember why I was feeling so low last night. Yea! Good day - completed a bunch of stuff that I wanted to and didn't obsess about my ute too much.

I bought some cute items from Loft, and I'm really looking forward to being able to shop their maternity line sometime in the not so distant future!

Things are not looking up

I'm starting off the weekend in a down mood. J is out of town until Monday, and it's already been a long week without him. I'm waiting until Tuesday to POAS, which is the day I'm supposed to wait to - but I've had breast tenderness and today that feeling of something in my lower abdomen - not like menstrual cramps, but a solid pull across the front.

So - the combination of this - being alone, and now being convinced that I'm just experiencing regular old PMS signs, means I'm feeling pretty low.

I'm hoping that having some plans of what I want to do for the weekend will help pull me through. The weather is supposed to be beautiful, so here are my plans, though not necessarily in this order:

• Clean kitchen, top to bottom
• Drive to nearby trail to take dog for an extended walk
• Work on my cross stitch
• Go to Ann Taylor Loft to see if there is any use for my coupon
• Go to Wild Birds Unlimited to buy some good birdseed and look for another feeder
• Vacuum my house
• Do 2 loads of laundry

So, nothing too crazy, but at least it's a list to focus on working my way through!

Did BPA Cause My Infertility?

Seriously. Should I be shaking my head right now, or should I legitimately be freaking out?

IUI #2 went the same as IUI #1 - doctor couldn't get the catheter in and had to pull out the scary clamp. It didn't seem so bad this time, probably because I knew what to expect this time. The only difference this cycle was I went in for monitoring on CD 12 instead of CD 10, and the doc had me trigger that night and IUI the next morning - he said the egg was ready to pop!

J is currently away on a business trip - and technically I'm supposed to test the first morning that he is back. I think that will be a good goal - no testing while he's away!

My "fertility" necklace arrived yesterday - a silver chain with a sliver pomegranate, horseshoe and garnet. It's very cute and I'm hoping it provides much needed fertility, luck and healing!

Unsaid

Well, I probably don't need to type here that IUI #1 was a bust. I knew the day before I was supposed to test when I started spotting, and I just lost it.

We're on to IUI #2, with the same protocol. I'm on day 5 of clomid today and the ultrasound to check on the follies is scheduled for next Monday. Let's hope that the 2nd time is the charm!

Productive and Waiting

I am so itching to POAS, but I won't, until Tuesday at least. If it's negative, I'm seriously going to be wondering what is going on in my ute, because there have been all sorts of twinges and things going on there for several days.

Today was soooo productive - I cleaned out my clothes closet, baked chocolate chip pumpkin bread, a baked penne dinner, and cleaned my butt off. It's a good way to keep myself distracted while I wait!